what to do?

When did I fall into such a deep depression? seriously..I just want to feel good again. I can't pull myself out of this on my own. I have an appt w/ a therapist but not for a couple of weeks. There is so much I have bottled up I guess it's all hitting me. I would like to get thru all this and live my life to the fullest and not miss out on my what God has for me and what I am missing. I have a wonderful family and I don't want to take any of that for granted. I really want to go on a vacation. I need a vacation!