Saturday, January 28, 2012

5 hrs till Disney!!!

5 hours until we leave for the airport. I CANNOT believe we are going to Disney world. This trip is something I NEVER thought would be possible. Now, it's right here! We are going to make memories to last a lifetime, spend time w/ our family and friends that is going to be priceless!!  I have to admit the amount of money this cost does scare me a bit, however every step we've taken has fallen into place, I know that God approves. My poverty mindset needs to GO! So that's what I'm doing. 
The kids are so excited they can hardly stand it. I am so thrilled to see that. Our family has been thru a lot. We deserve this! 
God has been so faithful thru this last year. There have been times that I have doubted him, and wondered what was the purpose in all we had dealt with. I still don't have all the answers but I'm am starting to be ok with it. I have to trust that God is going to give me answers as he sees fit, not as I see fit, no matter how big a fit I throw, lol.
I personally have a long ways to go, but I so far 2012 is off to a great start!!!!

Sunday, January 8, 2012

New Year!

Well it's a new Year. I am praying for 2012 to be a year of change. So far things haven't started off personally too well. That big bad beast called depression has hit me hard. It's such a selfish disease and I need it to go away. I have found that "willing" it away doesn't work. 
So to my friends and family that may read this, if I seem like I am blowing you off or ignoring you etc.. please just bear with me. I'm working thru this. As hard as it is some days just to get myself to take a shower, it's even harder to get up and get going and try to have or look like I'm having a normal life. 
I'm working on this. I do NOT want to live like this. I don't want to feel like this. I feel horrible that my kids are seeing this in my, which is all the more reason for me to work hard at getting better. so that's 2012 for me. 
3 weeks we leave for Disney World! The kids are so excited they can hardly stand it! Going at the same time as the Pritikin's and the Dubinsky's is going to be a blast. And my mom coming w/... being able to share all the memories w/ us~ it's going to be priceless. This is something we never thought we'd do. I couldn't justify using our taxes for a trip like this. HOWEVER, you only live one time. Our kids are growing up so fast, They will remember this for their whole life. I Want them to have these memories, I want to have them w/ them. It's a blessing.