Monday, March 11, 2013

Time's are tough...

Well it's been awhile since I last blogged. I've been doing a LOT of knitting and obsessing over coupons, lol. I got a binder to hold and organize all my coupons. I am doing a pretty decent job saving some $$. For example, at Target on Friday, I bought 3 boxes of Bounce dryers sheets, (34 count) for .15 cents all together. Not too shabby. 

In other news, it's been a rough few months. Isaiah's issues have gotten worse. Getting him to go to school is darn near impossible. The princple's are calling me, he's giving the special ed teacher a hard time, the bus driver. Last week he had an episode like he used to and I thought he'd break his hand he was banging it on the floor so hard. It's like 2009 all over again. For those that don't know what that means, 2009 was close to one of the worst years so far. At this point I'm overwhelmed, sad, tired and just at a loss as to what to do next. I never know what to expect. I can't get through a day with him w/o having issues (big issues) over the most small things. Everything is hard. This just wipes him out, wipes me out and the rest of the family. I am trusting God but I won't lie when I say I'm barely hanging on. 
Haley had a really bad UTI and we brought her to the Children's ER a few weeks ago. The only med that would ease the pain she was in was toradol through an IV. These infections are hitting her hard and taking her breath away. I don't know how to watch my daughter deal w/ this kind of pain and not have any way of taking it away. She said to me" I'm scared in the morning that I'll have spasms at school" and that she's tired of having to deal with all of it. This is EXACTLY what I knew would come out of her mouth some day. It was inevitable and now that it's here, I still can't do anything about it. she handles it well but she is only human and she can only take so much too. 
so right now, I am feeling like I need to raise the "I surrender flag"... I'm stressed, I feel so.... i don't even know. I just know that we need a break. This much stress is taking it's toll.