I had a case of writer's remorse this morning when I woke up and remembered what I blogged about last night. But the more I thought about it, the more I am glad I am open about my situation. Believe me, there's plenty more I don't share, don't need to and don't want to. But I think there's something to be said for stepping out in faith and not being afraid to talk about a portion of what you go through.
I seem to be going thru a very dark season in my life, between the assault (which is hard enough all by itself) and my health issues, I feel like I'm barely hanging on. But I want to focus tonight on the blessings in my life. First and foremost my relationship w/ God. He has never left or forsaken me, he does not judge me and his arms are always wide open for me, no matter how many times I screw up. I have a husband that loves me unconditionally, he spoils me and treats me like a princess. We've been married for 15 years and been thru a lot, and we are still in love. My kids. My babies. I could go on forever about what blessings they are. I couldn't have imagined having kids as awesome as they are. I have an awesome best friend, Julie! She has been here for me this year in the way a sister is. We've been best friends for so many years that I just feel so blessed to call her my BFF. She genuinely cares about me, my family, she calls me to make sure I'm ok, she remembers the little things. She's a blessing. I have a lot of awesome friends that do the same. It's something I do not take for granted. I don't know what I'd do w/o them in my life. And my family, well there aren't enough words. my mom is there for me for anything and everything and supports me. I don't know what I'd do w/o her.
So even though I have a lot of crap going on, I am TRYING to find the good and remember the good in my life. I don't like my circumstances but I can't change them. So..I'm doing the best I can. We have Christmas to look forward to, then at the end of January our dream family vacation to Disney World. God is good.
I love you too,Melissa! You are my BFF for life :-) i,too have had some rough times in my life. After my dad died, you were there for me. You called to check up on me and make sure my family and i were hanging in there. That meant the world to me! You are exactly what I need when I'm feeling down, or need to get my head back on straight. You're there to listen just when I need someone to just listen. We might not talk everyday, bit I know you're there for me if I need you. And I know you'll always be there for me wherever life might take us,and knowing that makes me smile :-)
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Jules
I can SO relate to writers remorse! I've had those same moments about being too honest on my blog too. As I read this post of yours I'm rejoicing with you over the blessings in your life during this difficult season for you. Jesus knows what we need. :) (visiting from (in)courage).
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