Not Me Monday!!

I am copying the idea of "Not me Monday" from MckMama, a blogger who I follow and love to read blogs!! Not me Monday consists of confessing or rather not confessing of the things we all do/ don't do that we surely are not fessing up to in our blog! So here goes..

This past week we opened our pool! Yay! I most definately did not look forward to this for the simple fact that my kiddos will stop complaining about how hot they are.... I also did not wait to make lunch until the kids came in and asked for it because of course I did not want to interrupt the peace and quiet I was enjoying in my lounge chair. I mean, if they are hungry, they'll let me know...right? Well for the record , they were hungry and I did feed them. LOL

I am an admitted Starbucks FREAK~!!! I definatley would never ever imagine or even consider getting my coffee in the a.m. and when my husband called me on his way home I did NOT say of course you can bring me Starbucks home-decaf of course because it was after 8 p.m. That would just be INSANE!! hahahahaha

I also wouln't dream of using bribery w/ my sweet kids! I definately didn't bribe my son w/ an ice cream cone if he got on his van... I also DID NOT tell him that the ice cream shop was closed just to get out of going.. I would never tell a lie....

Pool, God moments

Our pool is officially open and up and running, and it's already June 26th, lol.. with our crazy WI weather and Darnell's schedule it just didn't happen until today. We had to buy a new pump. Thank God for Darnell's overtime..so the kids had a blast! I am even tired and I jumped in and was in for just a bit.. Janis came over and hung out all day.. it was really nice! We both layed out and got some sun! 2mrw Darnell is off and we are going rummage saling in the a.m. probably and then spend the rest of the day in the pool. Hopefully if it's not too humid I can get some yard work done. I need to get the yard cleaned up some so that when we have pool parties the yard will look nice. I am still believing and waiting on God as far as our porch goes! All in his time. Sometime today I was thinking about summertime, this is our 3rd summer here. I'm still in awe in how God has blessed us w/ this house. I tend to worry and be anxious about EVERYTHING. Well I am doing my best to allow God to do his thing! I feel like He clearly said to me today" When are you just going to sit back and enjoy the blessings I have given you?" SOOO true! I don't have to have all the answers for down the road or even for tomorrow.. God already does. So I need to let that stress go. God gives us enough Grace for today. It's not like he's going to give me a whole bunch of grace and mercy so I can bank it and if I use it all up, then tough luck...Each day, each minute for that matter, God will be there. So, I am working on just enjoying the moment. All the moments I cherish are going to add up to a fruitfull, blessed life that I will completely enjoy. If I dont' do that, I will miss out on what God has for me. I don't want to miss a thing.

Feeling very domestic!

I got a lot accomplished today. I FINALLY vacuumed my dining room which was in complete disaray. I fixed my ceiling fan in the kitchen and even have the light sconces( spelling??) in the dishwasher so they won't be yucky. For some odd reason, I feel so accomplished when I get stuff like that done. Very domestic. So many women need to feel powerful and all that, and I won't lie when I say I would like that feeling once in awhile too. However, on the whole, I feel very satisfied when my home is in order. When I know my family's needs are met. I think this past year or so I know I've been falling deeper into a depression, so now that I am starting to come out of it, summer is here, the windows are open, I am feeling better. I love the smell of clean laundry, fresh sheets that were on the line outside, seeing my beauitful children golden brown from the sun...I was changing loads in the basement and I asked Savannah to help, she is so willing to help. All of my kids actually are. The girls are going to make wonderful wives and mothers some day, if they chose to. I hope they do, lol..

I keep having these waves of dizziness...I am sure it's because I have a prescription
I need to pick up and haven't had it in a few days. I have to go pick it up in the morning. Tomorrow is going to be crazy. But in the morning it will work out that it will be just me and Haley for a few hours. I am looking forward to it. I have been feeling like she needs that and the time for it just fell in my lap. Thank you Jesus! I know it wasn't a coincedence. God is looking out for my little girl! Well I am off to put the laundry away...

crazy fun summer days!

Today was HOT!!! It's like a week and a half ago, we all were freezing our tootsies off here in WI, now BAM summer has hit! We took the pool cover off, for once I had the bright idea of taking it off before it rains so that it's easier to get off w/o all the water..score for Melissa! And the water actually looks decent, the winterization stuff worked well. We can actually see the bottom. So Darnell has to shock it and then run the filter, vacuum it and we'll be up and running! I can't wait. I am very unmotivated lately. I have sooo much I need to do, want to do, yet I do NOTHING! What will it take to lite a fire under me? My day today consisted of dropping Savannah off at peer mediation training, going thru the walgreens drive thru, the band drive thru, starbucks, dropping the kids off at KK( kiddie Korner) all before 8:30 a.m. I had at least showered, but my hair wasn't done, no makeup, lol.. I spent the morning hanging out w/ Nikki and the girls. They are precious! Summer is officially here and I have a feeling I am going to be more worn out by the end of it then I am when the kids are in school. I put a ridiculous amount of miles on my gas guzzling van( still VERY thankful for it though)! However, I am glad I can be home, and be w/ my kids, as much as they may drive me nuts! What a boring life I would lead w/o my beautiful kids to make me squirrely! They are fabulous kids! I could go on forever. I just feel blessed. In spite of the recent drama w/ Isaiah, I can still see how blessed I am. I am trusting God. Waiting patiently. Trying VERY hard not to complain. Some days I whine and go on and on..but this is me. Take me or leave me. I try my best to be real and I won't ever apologize for that. I don't want my kids to ever look back and think wow, my mom acted one way at home and another way somewhere else. I might be crazy, but at least I'm consistent, HA HA HA!!! Serioulsy though, these are the days that are going to allow me to grow, to learn and to lean on God. I now am going to go to bed! The morning comes way toooo fast!!

Off to a good Monday!

Monday...and it's actually off to a good start! Savannah has peer mediation training this week from 8-1, the other kids have kiddie corner 8:30-11:30, Isaiah has his program from noon-4:30..busy busy..but this morning Isaiah was in a fabulous mood! Actually all the kids were. Makes monday mornings go so much more smoothly! I have so much cleaning I should be doing. I just don't know where to get the motivation from! Yesterday I sat down and wrote a letter to God. We need this porch thing taken care of. We don't have the money right now to do it and we have a deadline from the city to at least make a good dent in getting it started. In the past I have written a letter to God, claiming scriptures that assure me God will provide for our needs. So, I felt a huge release when I did that. Now I wait. It's all in God's time, not mine. He's never late! Last summer when Darnell lost his job I had been looking at my roses that were just coming up and God really impressed upon me that the new roses represented life, beauty, this last few days all my roses are blooming and again I felt like God was showing me that each rose represents the fruitful life and many years God has for us in our home. Some may not see it that way, but God speaks to all of us in a different way, thru various things to get our attention. 10 years ago I would have walked past a rose bush and never even noticed a thing about it, now that I'm older and appreciate taking care of a home, having hanging flower pots, rose bushes, making my house a home. That is how God speaks thru me and to me. Right now I am waiting on God. I am realizing that I have to learn how to wait. I have spent so much time worrying, being paranoid, etc..and God clearly states that he will take care of all my needs. It's such a comfort. I am waiting on God w/ Isaiah too. His situation requires a lot of patience and I have come to the point that I have NO other choice but to wait and trust God. I need to learn my lesson that I cannot bully God into making things right at the exact moment I want it. So.. I humbly will get on my knees and wait. I am thankful that God gives us mercy and grace.

Carpal tunnel???

Yesterday I made myself drag the shop vac(borrowed from my mil ) and vacuumed the basement..when I was done, I was sweating, and my right hand was almost trembling. Which confirms, to me anyways, that I do have carpal tunnel or something of that nature. Then when I woke up today, my hand is still tingly and hurts all the way up my arm. Now that I finally have the motivation to do some major cleaning, my hand is killing me. And if indeed it's carpal tunnel, I do not have the time to have surgery to have it fixed!! Darnell is working tons of overtime. Which is great financially, but difficult b/c that leaves me w/ Isaiah in the evenings. Right now, he's gone pretty much all day. He's at kiddie corner 8:30-11:30 and then his van picks him up at noon and gets home at 4:30. But last night he came home and OMG it was like he was possessed. I hate to say that, but he was just fuming and angry.. I don't know if everything is just catching up to him..who knows. I'm just the mom. I don't know jack about what makes that boy tick, lol..The other kids are having a good time at kiddie corner. They are such good kids. And today's blog is done because my hand is killing me! lol

First offical day of summer vacation!

Well today officially began our summer vacation. Kiddie Corner started. They all were looking forward to it. I was very impressed w/ myself, lol, because I got up and was showered before 7:45 a.m. I had the dishwasher loaded, Jeremiah brought the laundry to the basement, the kids were all dressed and ready to go. We had a few hiccups w/ Isaiah once we got to Lockwood park, but he ended up going. Then when we got home I had to keep the momentum going so he would get on his van. I had to pick him up, but he got on. He was crying, but not throwing a fit kind of crying. We are making progres. It's very slow, but at least it's in the right direction. I got the downstairs vacuumed, I still need to dust and scrub the kitchen floors. I think I'll save that for tomorrow. Jeremiah of course is at his home away from home, hi Bff Blair. He's spending the night. So..for the first day of summer vacation w/ 5-6 kids in tow it was a good day! I even got a short nap when just the girls were home and they were playing "friends" Now Isaiah is home and playing too, I just heard him say " What's up girlfriend?" LOL!!! On that note I'm off to make dinner.