Thursday, December 2, 2010

Home again!

Well I've been home almost a week. It was an amazing 10 day vacation! It felt SO weird to not have the responibilties of being a mom and wife. Before I left, I really wanted to know what it would feel like to just be ME. At first it was sweet. It was great to wake up when I wanted to, take a nap when I wanted to...In my whole adult life I have never had that experience. Well now I can say that I have AND I am glad to be a wife and mom. I don't want to be without my husband and kids for that long. I seriously think I needed to see the other side of the coin. Now I know I am completely content with what I have. Aaron and Meg were wonderful hosts! I had so much fun. At first when I was down there I thought "oh, I want to move down here!!" then by day 5 or 6 I decided No, I do NOT want to live down here!! haha It was of course freezing when I got home, but I honestly was fine w/ it. It was muggy in FL when I left. Then on the plane It was soo hot, the cool air felt great. The kids made me welcome home signs!!!! Darnell met me at the airport w/ roses and a bottle of my favorite wine. He missed me so much. I missed him more! It felt good to go and come home to a family that missed me. I am so thankful for a husband who saw I needed a break and gave me one. He honestly is one of a kind!!!
The last few days I have been feeling weird. I think it's just getting back in the swing of things. I guess I had the expectation that I would come home and feel like a brand new person. I do feel TONS better. But I realize that I have to manage my everyday life so that I don't let myself get so keyed up. Plus I am PMS'ing... so that alone says enough, hahahaha. Jeremiah will be 14 in 4 days. When people tell you it goes fast, it is no joke! How did I get a teenager that is taller than me. He's 5'8. I feel sort of displaced. so many of my friends have little little kids , or are just having babies. My kids are all in school. It's funny b/c 10 years ago I was feeling weird b/c I was the only w/ with kids and my friends were off doing their own thing. I apprreciate the ages that they are at. They are growing up into beautiful people. I am trying to savor every moment. My sweet first born is a young man. And a great one at that. Even when he does things that irritate me to no end, he still is a great kid.