I feel like I have a boulder on my shoulders.. I'm concerned about not having a 2nd vehicle... we travel back and forth so much when she's up there.. now I'm wishing we would have bought a 2nd vehicle w/ our taxes, but we needed a new stove and fridge and obviously I couldn't predict all this. Trying to keep up w/ our other kids, be there for Haley.. I feel completely overwhelmed. I know God will give me what I need. He always has. I'm glad I have time to prepare. There is a chance we could go up there and they could say, oh she doesn't need surgery. In that case I may be sorta pissed off b/c if she's leaking now, chances are it's not going away and we specifically told the Dr that we want this taken care of now.
I feel like I want to scream, cry, run away, sleep, I know I am over the top right now... but oh well... it is what it is. If I don't get all this off my chest, I won't sleep good, and I feel like my mind is going a mile a minute. Tomorrow I will come back and read this and think geez Melissa, what a whiner, lol...oh well. take me or leave me. I'm just a mom, trying to get thru some rough stuff w/ my baby. yes she's 12, but she'll always be my baby.