sick and tired

Isaiah went to his program yesterday and didn't today. I was SOOO mad. I will put it right out there and say I am sooo sick and tired of his moods and episodes dictating the whole dang day. He blows up about everything and dang it I'm SICK OF IT!!!!!!!!!! I reallly serioulsy don't know how much more I can take. We have this porch crap to take care of & that's stressing me out..I know I need to trust God, and I feel like I have been trying so hard to put my faith in him and it seems like things are just getting worse! I've got no motivation, i need to clean and be productive and I just can't seem to get myself together...I feel like I just want to say ok God, ENOUGH! So there..I need to spit that all out.